My house is in a state of deconstruction. Fix It Dude comes over everyday at 7 a.m. (yes, even in the -26 C weather) and wakes me up with the sound of a crowbar against aluminum siding. He rips off pieces of my abode, tossing the metal and wood in an unruly pile on my deck and replacing it with overpriced insulation.
My house was built in 1946, and if you look at the front of it at the moment, you can see all the layers of its existence, from the recently added pink Styrofoam insulation and red tape, to the tacky white and yellow aluminum siding from the 70s, to the even worse teal blue wooden siding underneath that, to the black tar paper beneath it all. It's a mishmash of 51 years of renovations and I gotta say, it looks like hell.
(And it's going to look like a construction zone all winter, because we can't stucco over the hot pink insulation until spring.)
But then I remind myself that this is all necessary. Those layers need to be excavated and ripped down so that I can start fresh and have a home that I'm proud of, not just one that I'm living in. As crappy as it looks now, when we're done, it will be worth it.
This is how my life feels right now - in absolute disarray. It's frustrating and exhausting and it seems like there is no end to the difficulties I am facing. I can't even imagine what my life will look like when this is all over. It's hard to believe that it will ever be over.
But I keep chipping away at it. And hoping that what works for houses works for people, too.
7 comments:
ahh ma bella, je comprends.
when you come over for coffee you can view my cupboardless kitchen - which hath been bare of storage for ... 4 years now and it'll probably be another 2 years before i get them done...heavy sigh! though the paint is great it is still not cupboards.
HOWEVER, instead of feeling underwhelmed when cooking I have decided to view it as a way of minimizing clutter and motivsating the creative response.
self delusion is lovely ;)
I want my own house so bad. But then, I hear things like this, and remember all the work that goes into having your own home, and I have to wonder if I have the motivation or even the attention span to do it.
You give good analogy.
I support building material diversity. Don't hate. Insulate.
we're all lining up to help you insulate your heart. We loves you. :D
just stopping by to say I'm hoping you are feeling okay....
Have you ever known a renovation where the after is worse than the before? No. It's ALWAYS better after and makes all the mess and all the frustration worth while.
(And yes, I'm speaking bother literally and metaphorically
kind of like children once they leave home ...
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